Wednesday, June 8, 2016
SM Johnson ~ Love Letters ~ Intensity
Not every day or every minute, but intensity makes us feel deeply, care deeply, and work passionately.
Whoa. I am loving the adverbs this morning. Allow me to revise that sentence.
Intensity makes us feel, care, and work with passion.
And passion makes life worth living.
I have spent the last 10 months rushing through my life in a mad dash from place to place, rarely able to be still, relax, or settle. I have written a half a million words of academic papers, which feels somewhat insane now that I am back to noveling.
Noveling is so much easier.
And yet academics have allowed me to experience growth in areas I didn't even know I was lacking. My awareness of the human condition has expanded, as well as my understanding of many things good, bad, and ugly. I had one wonderful professor who adroitly challenged me in things I already believed I did well, and made the challenge in such a way that she brought me to self-reflection rather than making me feel defensive.
That's talent, let me tell you.
The most valuable lessons for me all involved self-reflection. I am not always wrong, but I'm not always right, either. I went into my Master's program with some degree of arrogance. I believed I had more years and more legitimate experience than most of my co-students. I believed, in fact, that my level of experience in my day job put me about level with my professors.
Today this notion is absolutely laughable.
I had a lot of experience in one tiny arena. My professors have a wealth of experience in many different arenas, and minds that are capable of thinking well outside the box, far beyond what I was capable of. I hate boxes, and yet I discovered that I had put myself into a really tiny one.
The discovery of all that I didn't know was exhilarating. Terrifying.
And all of this I hope to bring into my books.
Have a great week, my lovely Darklings. And be sure to pay attention to all of the things in your life that make you feel, care, and work with passion!